emergency post --- just my luck

Scenario ----  pouring azz rain, gas light is on, wearing oversized comfy sweats taking the wonderful daughter to cheer

So here I go, venturing out in the rain AGAIN getting soaked running to the car b/c the garage door broke and I have to park outside (strike one!).  Wonderful teen daughter inserts comment "Thats why we have hoodies now!" as opposed to 30 minutes ago when we came home from getting soaked at the grocery store so I look like a drowned rat anyways..........  Now I get in the car where the gas light starts blinking so there is no putting off the gas station till the morning as planned, gotta go in the rain.  As I am pumping the gas I feel there are eyes staring me down and I look around.  Crap, a skeleton just fell out of the closet!  Why me, why now, why when I am soaked and in my neighborhood. You know the one, the one you always have to look your best to see!  Not that he hasn't seen me at my worst (oh and there were many nights of that!) but it's been years since visual contact.  I know it has been over 3 since we talked b/c I had just gotten Theo (yes I name my cars) and he hasn't seen it.  But even then we just talked on the phone.  This was my best guy friend for the crazy years of life!!!! We helped each other with all our problems, we could talk about nothing for hours or watch history movies without feeling like we had to entertain each other or just drink margaritas without worrying about hating each other in the morning.  It was great!  Then I had to suddenly move all the way across town one day (long story) and decided to get married out of the blue 6 months later.  We've bumped into each other over the last eight years but so much had changed.  (Wow and now that I think about it, last time I had just literally left the gym so I guess today was a step up)  Well needless to say, I didn't talk to him tonight.  How could I looking like this???  I have been working so hard on losing weight and he has to see me in an oversized sweatshirt, I was mortified.  Why couldn't it be a day where I was dressed up, with the confidence to go say hi??? I have always envisioned looking him up when things are better, to say "Hey, guess what I've been through." He hasn't seen me since I gained the weight or since I got sick. I dont think he would have cared about the weight, but I do. I just acted like I didn't see him, stopped pumping the gas, got in my car and sped away.  As for the cheer practice that started all this..... got to the fields to find out it was cancelled!   Just my luck...............